It's not about

being woman or man or something else. Why the fuck
would you vote for McCain
because your woman didn't win
the nomination? I don't get it. I'm not looking
close enough. I don't get it. I just don't understand
often
how people can say the things they say
and I get caught up in it
and I fucking miss you
and I'm trying not to think trying trying to be interesting/interested/friendly and helpful to customers/worthy of tips/on time/befriended/be friends. Your voice breaks. Stop jeering. Stop booing. Everyone stop talking. I'm ranting this
isn't making sense altogether I can't
I can't manage these long days this thinking
not thinking hard enough well enough

I am not happy without you.