Thought you

were going to call me.

It

sort of reminds me of camping.




Is this what you were wanting?




I need to find a job I can handle full-time,
something with benefits and a living wage,
something that doesn't make me want to ________.

Here is a post

about vegan food. I had a headache.
Kept waking. To turn is to wake
sometimes. To turn is to wake.

And my phone is always dying now.
I stick it in the car, but not. For long
enough. (But not for long enough).

Place quotation marks around what.
"What?" He was always asking questions
while the boots fell a[part]. Things
break. Their nature is to fracture
to disintegration. It's nature. To fracture.

To bombs away
explode.

X-mess

"Look how sweaty I am after just a half-hour"
Christmas mice Christmas mice
"It starts at 6:30"
email me or something

I can make myself not think of things
in the ways I tend to think of things.

Johnny Carson's entire life.
Eggnog and the sleeves don't fit. (Is that
a natural progression? Fuck fuck.)

I hate these home for the holidays things.
What to do what to do about ______
feeling ______.

These blanks do not denote a thing. My grades
are back and 2 A's, A plus, A minus, B plus.
(You were there when I was upset about that last)
(I just couldn't bullshit that class) I have a fucking
3.9 cumulative GPA which I assume means
I am intelligent(?)

Marry X-mess. Just do it.

I think to have

the things I want I need
to be a different person.

I'm suffering from cognitive dissonance
constantly. As well as conflation of life
and of dreams. Our thermostat is set
on 46. Why am I cemented
to the most mundane brush-aways?

Oh God. I must make Christmas mice!

Ring Ring

Me: Lincoln Espresso, how may I help you?
Caller: ...Who is this?
Me: Rachael.
Click.

Um...(?)

done done done with

Finals. And
I have no cavities
just teeth.

Aaaaand

reactivated

Deactivated

deactivation

Finish liiiiiiiiine! Where aaaare youuuuuuu!

To Do:

artistic project for shakespeare/chaucer/milton: write allisoun song

final portfolio -

write:
a.final course narrative
b.portfolio cover letter

include:
a. midterm course narrative
b. 3 peer reviews


include/write:

project one
a. copies of journal entries w/out names
b. first draft of booklet
c. final draft of booklet
d. final author's note

project two
a. first draft
b. all other drafts
c. final draft
d. final author's note

project three
a. first draft
b. all other drafts
c. final draft
d. email barbara re:gender neutral pronouns or do other research
e. message fb re gender neutral pronouns
f. final draft
g. final author's note

Ugh

reading about abortion, about the pre-legalized abortion times
and even pre-legalized birth control (especially for the un-marrieds)
upsets me so much.

particularly this story of a 29 year old mother of eight
who dies in an emergency room
after a botched illegal abortion

fucking
upsetting. makes me want to rip my ovaries out.

or to have removed her ovaries for her so she didn't have to DIE BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T WANT 9 KIDS IN 9 YEARS OR SOMETHING. I mean seriously. I don't know if I can make myself protest against abortion, as I've set myself up to have to do. I am having a hell of a time making this paper longer than 12 pages.

wake up crying

grab the body of the boy


this is my theory
of advice to you

comments stolen from "lindsay lohan's myspace blog"

*****
Lesbianism and Homosexual ity is Foul and Nasty, and Completely out of the WILL of God. Yes, most People know this and Still decide to Live their Lives like Christ is not real and his Promises will not come to past. It's a Certain way you Address it though or it will be Ill received. I am really praying for Lindsay Lohan, and all those Lost Souls in Hollywood. It's Sad. People are so lost and Everything that the Bible has said in Revelation s is Coming to Past, and Most of it already has. PEOPLE, We did not get here by some Random Higher Power. His name is JESUS and His Promises are REAL. Stop Playing With God. Heaven is Real. Hell is Real, and When God said (Thou Shalt Not Lye with another Woman if you are a Woman and Vice Versa. He really meant it. It's a Commandmen t, Not a Choice. I know that Some People are going to Have their Negative Stuff to Say, but That's your Soul. I'll be Praying for you. God Bless!
- blackhairgirl

*****
Nasty, skanky, confused, chemically addicted lesbians. Disgusting . Let me break something down for you there chic..... She is not a man. She just wants to be one. And she probably hates them all at the same time.
I'm going to design a line of clothing for women who hate men, who envy men, who like women... Where to start...
-blondguy

*****
you know you miss the cock. you KNOW you do. don't deny it. sorry, but Sam can't fulfill your "cock " needs...th ere's nothing like the real thing! lol. you're going to go back to men soon enough. it's a phase Linds, just a phase.
-blondgirl

*****
YAY! Now all I need is for Natalie Portman to say shes gay :) MMM
-cutebrunette

*****
wtf lesibian ass
get straight no one wants some fag celebrity on MTV
fuckin fag
-dumbass

*****
Ok, my girls and I have been a fan of your's since watching the re-make of parent trap. But upon learning that you are lesbian and you are flaunting it like crazy, I am no longer a fan nor will I allow my children to watch anything of your's. Why was this something that the world needed to know about you. Can't you celeb's keep your personal life, personal.. ..??? Maybe too many people must know but you celebs need to learn how to keep things personal.
-needs to learn how to use apostrophes



*****
Homosexual ity sucks!!
Sickening! !
You people are nasty!!
ewwwwwww
God is against it and so am I!!!
Why is it always the pretty people that want to be a homo?
ugh its sickening
- may actually be a lesbian (secretly)

I've sort of been wanting to learn how to swing dance for awhile.

So I was looking at the non-credit course catalog for SCC today, and lo and behold!, "Jitterbug and East Coast Swing" course next semester, $86 per couple. Wednesday at 8 or Thursday at 6; 8 sessions.